Description
Over the past five years, Andy has been photographing and musing about his sadomasochistic and esoteric desires, giving a poetic insight into his very personal world spanning the cities of Stockholm, Berlin, Tokyo and Montreal.
Above all else, this book is about the intimacy of belonging. It’s an attempt to open a door to that intimate space where we deeply long to belong—and where we might question our right to do so. Even while being obsessed with the taboos of sadomasochism and esoteric eroticism. This book is my claiming the permission to belong as a deviant, queer, and one not journeying along a straight line of normative society.
This book’s title is Rituals and Paradoxes as these elements are what have remained most relevant to me after over twenty years of exploration. I have no intention of resolving the paradoxes I’ve encountered because they are most valuable as unresolved mysteries which reside in both the conscious and subconscious mind. And yet this journey is also an embodied one and one of the spirit.
For me, the best way to approach the esoteric side of eroticism has been through rituals, so I have also decided to include five recipes for the rituals which have helped me befriend the five paradoxes that this book is structured around.
In addition, the book contains many intimate stories from my private play, mostly drawn from old handwritten diaries on my bookshelves. And my personal photography documenting enigmatic intimacy rounds out these dives into the eros of my private psyche. By including these, I aim to provide a vision of how these abstract and philosophical ideas may come to play themselves out in real life. Play. There’s a word that will be often repeated in this book. It is all a play, after all.
So take my hand, follow me. Don’t be scared, I’ve got you.
Pages: 499, including 52 pictures
Format: PDF
Size:Â 80Mb
Shipping:Â 7-day digital download
